I was thinking about how I have a lot of balls in the air right now: raising a family, serving in our church, homeschooling, housekeeping, baking, real estate work, and more.
Most days, I feel pretty inadequate in one area or another. Maybe I spent a lot of time teaching Sadie the alphabet, but dinner that night was just thrown together from various leftovers in the fridge.
Another day I may have washed, folded, and put away the laundry, but my email inbox was full of real estate work I ignored.
I’m learning that in some seasons of life, it’s okay to be mediocre at things you’re usually good at. Right now, I’m okay with being a mediocre housekeeper and cook in favor of being a present mom.
I feel like my life has revolved around various therapies lately. Sadie’s speech therapy happens on a weekly basis and she is working so hard to overcome her articulation disorder. I’m really proud of her!
I started physical therapy for my abdominal separation post-pregnancy. I’m finding it hard to fit one more thing in my schedule, but I also know it’s important to take care of my health.
Mordecai is likely going to have therapy for his arm and shoulder after his pediatrician noticed his right arm is weak.
I feel like as soon as the doctor mentioned the issue with his arm and how he went through shoulder dystocia during his birth, I often notice his arm and hand in really weird positions.
If you google shoulder dystocia, the first thing that comes up is birth injury lawyers, which is a little alarming. My sister has taught me not to google things because it can be such a fear-inducing experience.
I know shoulder dystocia is linked with erb’s palsy and other nerve damage issues, but I won’t have any answers until Mordecai is evaluated by a team of neurologists and early intervention later this month.
The way I see it is:
- Mordecai could be totally fine.
- He could have some sort of birth injury.
- If he has a birth injury, we can do therapy or whatever the doctor recommends.
- If he has a physical disability for the rest of his life, it doesn’t change who he is or how much we love him.
When I break things down that way, it helps me take it all in and realize that it’s going to be okay. I don’t have all the answers, but in the meantime I am leaning on the One who does. I’m thankful for therapy, doctors, and my sweet babies.
God uses hardships, uncertainty, and brokenness to bring us closer to Him. The things we wish were “all better” are the things that can connect us to other people who are in a similar situation.
Sorry today’s post is a bit all over the place! As usual, I decided to just overshare everything on my mind and keep it real 😉
Living My Full Life 
You’re doing such a great job Allie! Keep up the good work 🥰 We love you! Also the picture of Mordecai and Jimmy smiling at each other is ADORABLE! ❤️
Thank you so much Hannah! That means the world to me!
That picture is one of my faves!!
I feel a bit mediocre now myself too! Unfortunately a job I interviewed for when I was back in the US went to another candidate (from the same company, lol). I was hoping it was the way I’d get back home, but I’m trying to shift my mindset about it in that maybe it means something even better. It’s hard when you don’t know, when you just have to live and go through the process of life, but I agree with you in that hardships are there for a reason and that they can open up connections you’d never thought possible
I also hope everything is all OK with Mordecai. You are such a great mom!
We are living the mediocre life together haha. Though, Pree, you are far from mediocre in my eyes! From your work, to where you live, and how you do adult life is so cool and not mediocre to me 🙂
Sorry about the job situation. I think it happened because something better is in store for you!!
All things work to the good of those who believe!
Everything will be fine!
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Amen! I love you!
THAT LAST PHOTO. They look like bro’s just having a chat, and M looks so freaking cute. Sorry, that was the first thing I had to say. I know we alllllll struggle with these mediocre thoughts and feelings you are most certainly not alone. Sometimes we are juggling TOO much and that just means by default we have to do less in some areas to shine in others. No one can do it ALL. You’re doing better than you think. One day at a time.
Sending prayers for Mordecai and his arm.
It’s one of my absolute favorite photos right now! It’s just so stinkin’ sweet!
I’m glad I’m not alone in the mediocre feelings. It can be hard to feel alone in things like that. You’re right that it stems from juggling too much! Amen to one day at a time. I needed to read that 🙂
Thank you for the prayers for Mordecai!!