14 Weeks As A Mom

Sadie is officially 14 weeks old. A little more than a quarter of a year. How?! I last posted my thoughts on being a mom at the six week mark, and I’m back eight weeks later with more thoughts.

Loving Sadie is easy. Being a parent is (sometimes) hard. It’s a rewarding experience.

I still don’t feel like a mom. I feel like Sadie’s mom when someone besides me is holding her and she cries until she’s back in my arms. But feeling like an actual mom (<– whatever that means)? Not really!

I adore holding her soft little hands and her smile is my favorite.

Holding baby hand

I’m totally dreading ever having to discipline her. She’s just so cute, innocent, and sweet that I can’t imagine that day I have to enforce rules and boundaries with her.

I really enjoy connecting with other parents. It kind of feels like a club ūüôā

I’m learning to trust my instinct, but at the same time I have no idea what I’m doing.

It’s so much fun to see Sadie discover the world around her. Her joy brings me joy.

Three month old baby in jumper

Not knowing what to expect is hard. Every single day, I wake up not knowing what the day will bring. I’m sure we’ll settle into a routine as Sadie grows, but this type-A planner chick struggles with the unknown.

I’m learning to go with the flow. Along with my last point about not knowing what to expect, I’m learning that it’s much easier if I just surrender to what the day brings. When I try to force XYZ to happen, it just results in stress. It’s so much more freeing to say, “Well, I’d like to fold laundry and get groceries today, but I might be feeding Sadie all day because she’s going through a growth spurt and that’s okay.” I have to remind myself what’s most important and realize everything else can wait.

Being a family is so cool. I don’t know how else to put it. I love hanging out with Jimmy, Sadie, and the pets. I still can’t believe it’s all real sometimes. It feels like such a great blessing and responsibility from God. It’s very, very humbling!

Husband and wife kissing and holding baby family photo

In the first weeks of motherhood, I felt absolutely consumed by caring for our sweet girl. I thought I’d never get to do things like blog, watercolor, or bake again. The weight of caring for a baby felt (and still feels) heavy, but I am finding time here and there to enjoy my hobbies and passions. Taking time to do things the “old me” used to do feels so wonderful.

Breastfeeding is amazing and hard. Before I had Sadie, I decided I wouldn’t put pressure on myself to breastfeed if it didn’t work out. It turned out that Sadie didn’t give me a choice (she snubs bottles!), and I’m kind of glad. It has been such a journey and learning curve, but it’s also incredibly special and rewarding.

I have no idea what I’d do without help from Jimmy, our families, and church family.

Showering, getting dressed, and getting out every day does wonders for my sanity. I think Sadie likes the change of scenery, too.

Baby in stroller with cocker spaniel dog walking beside

Some days are productive and others are just… not, lol.

Life will never be the same, and it’s always changing. Some things are becoming easier and some are becoming harder. It will always be that way. What an adventure.

It’s easy to worry about¬†Sadie’s development but I’m going to let her be a baby. I see so many videos, products, posts, etc. about baby development, milestones, and more. I could be teaching her Spanish or¬†taking her to music lessons, but I think a baby should be a baby. She’ll develop just fine whether or not I speak Spanish to her.

Our pets continue to impress us with how they’ve accepted Sadie. Lola is indifferent to her, Mavis loves her, and Malcolm thinks she’s his baby. I can’t wait to see how their relationships develop as Sadie grows.

Cocker spaniel dog and baby laying together

Mom shaming is a thing. I’ve been scolded twice in public for not having a hat on Sadie. Yikes.

Surrender has been my word since having Sadie. I need to surrender my plans, surrender to this new journey, and surrender to all God is doing in my life.

Jimmy is so competent with Sadie.¬†No one soothes Sadie like her daddy does.¬†Jimmy is¬†also amazing at helping me. He comes home after eight or nine hours at work and dives right into family life with us and I couldn’t be more grateful.

Dad with baby girl in nursery

I want to give¬†Sadie the whole world. Of course I know what she needs most is love and to know the Lord, and I don’t want her to become spoiled, but I want to give her the best life possible.

I feel God refining me. He is teaching me patience, selflessness, and surrender. In turn, He has given me the gift of our daughter, joy, and so much thankfulness!


Our First Christmas As A Family

Well, our first Christmas with Sadie is in the books and it was lovely! We had a good mix of visiting our families, attending church, and downtime at home together.

Here’s a quick rundown of all the celebrations!

Saturday December 22nd –> Went to dinner at my sister-in-law’s and she got engaged! That was so special ‚̧

Laura is engaged

Sunday December 23rd –> Went to church in the morning and then listened to the choir sing a beautiful cantata in the evening. Sadie and I matched outfits again. Can’t stop, won’t stop ūüėČ

Mother and daughter matching outfit

Monday December 24th –> Baked pretzel hugs in the morning, went to my parents house to exchange gifts with Hannah and Josh, attended our church’s Christmas Eve service, and went to my mother-in-laws afterwards.

Hannah and Josh had their anatomy scan that morning and it’s a girl! They’re naming her¬†Caroline! It was such an answered prayer to hear that their daughter is healthy and measuring right on track. God is good!

Holding up ultrasound to baby

Tuesday December 25th –> Woke up before Jimmy and Sadie and read the story of Jesus’ birth while I sipped my coffee and hung out with the pets. Once everyone was up we exchanged gifts.

We kept it simple and gave Sadie a book about the first Christmas. Jimmy gifted me the one thing I’ve been wanting since September, which is a necklace with Sadie’s name on it! He also gave me this book, which is perfect for me, haha.

Sadie name necklace in silver

I gave Jimmy a waffle maker and smart lightbulbs. An odd combo, but that’s exactly what he wanted, lol. In the evening, we headed to my brother’s house to celebrate with him, our family, and my sister-in-law’s family.

Sadie loved all the cuddling and attention! We were all discussing the fact that next Christmas, there will be a toddler (Sadie… a toddler. Hold me.) and two six-month-old babies (Caroline and my brother and Racquel’s baby!) at our celebration. I also filmed a vlog that day.

Family Christmas picture

Friday December 28th –> Had dinner at my father and mother-in-law’s and exchanged gifts. It was a great evening to cap off all of our Christmas celebrations!

Opening Christmas gifts by Christmas tree

Looking back on this Christmas, there were so many good things. My sister-in-law got engaged, Hannah and Josh have a healthy baby girl, and Jimmy and I spent our first Christmas with sweet Sadie Mae.

Most importantly, we celebrated the birth of Christ and all that means for us as Christians. What a blessing ‚̧

Tell me about your Christmas!