Parenting

14 Weeks As A Mom

Sadie is officially 14 weeks old. A little more than a quarter of a year. How?! I last posted my thoughts on being a mom at the six week mark, and I’m back eight weeks later with more thoughts.

Loving Sadie is easy. Being a parent is (sometimes) hard. It’s a rewarding experience.

I still don’t feel like a mom. I feel like Sadie’s mom when someone besides me is holding her and she cries until she’s back in my arms. But feeling like an actual mom (<– whatever that means)? Not really!

I adore holding her soft little hands and her smile is my favorite.

Holding baby hand

I’m totally dreading ever having to discipline her. She’s just so cute, innocent, and sweet that I can’t imagine that day I have to enforce rules and boundaries with her.

I really enjoy connecting with other parents. It kind of feels like a club 🙂

I’m learning to trust my instinct, but at the same time I have no idea what I’m doing.

It’s so much fun to see Sadie discover the world around her. Her joy brings me joy.

Three month old baby in jumper

Not knowing what to expect is hard. Every single day, I wake up not knowing what the day will bring. I’m sure we’ll settle into a routine as Sadie grows, but this type-A planner chick struggles with the unknown.

I’m learning to go with the flow. Along with my last point about not knowing what to expect, I’m learning that it’s much easier if I just surrender to what the day brings. When I try to force XYZ to happen, it just results in stress. It’s so much more freeing to say, “Well, I’d like to fold laundry and get groceries today, but I might be feeding Sadie all day because she’s going through a growth spurt and that’s okay.” I have to remind myself what’s most important and realize everything else can wait.

Being a family is so cool. I don’t know how else to put it. I love hanging out with Jimmy, Sadie, and the pets. I still can’t believe it’s all real sometimes. It feels like such a great blessing and responsibility from God. It’s very, very humbling!

Husband and wife kissing and holding baby family photo

In the first weeks of motherhood, I felt absolutely consumed by caring for our sweet girl. I thought I’d never get to do things like blog, watercolor, or bake again. The weight of caring for a baby felt (and still feels) heavy, but I am finding time here and there to enjoy my hobbies and passions. Taking time to do things the “old me” used to do feels so wonderful.

Breastfeeding is amazing and hard. Before I had Sadie, I decided I wouldn’t put pressure on myself to breastfeed if it didn’t work out. It turned out that Sadie didn’t give me a choice (she snubs bottles!), and I’m kind of glad. It has been such a journey and learning curve, but it’s also incredibly special and rewarding.

I have no idea what I’d do without help from Jimmy, our families, and church family.

Showering, getting dressed, and getting out every day does wonders for my sanity. I think Sadie likes the change of scenery, too.

Baby in stroller with cocker spaniel dog walking beside

Some days are productive and others are just… not, lol.

Life will never be the same, and it’s always changing. Some things are becoming easier and some are becoming harder. It will always be that way. What an adventure.

It’s easy to worry about Sadie’s development but I’m going to let her be a baby. I see so many videos, products, posts, etc. about baby development, milestones, and more. I could be teaching her Spanish or taking her to music lessons, but I think a baby should be a baby. She’ll develop just fine whether or not I speak Spanish to her.

Our pets continue to impress us with how they’ve accepted Sadie. Lola is indifferent to her, Mavis loves her, and Malcolm thinks she’s his baby. I can’t wait to see how their relationships develop as Sadie grows.

Cocker spaniel dog and baby laying together

Mom shaming is a thing. I’ve been scolded twice in public for not having a hat on Sadie. Yikes.

Surrender has been my word since having Sadie. I need to surrender my plans, surrender to this new journey, and surrender to all God is doing in my life.

Jimmy is so competent with Sadie. No one soothes Sadie like her daddy does. Jimmy is also amazing at helping me. He comes home after eight or nine hours at work and dives right into family life with us and I couldn’t be more grateful.

Dad with baby girl in nursery

I want to give Sadie the whole world. Of course I know what she needs most is love and to know the Lord, and I don’t want her to become spoiled, but I want to give her the best life possible.

I feel God refining me. He is teaching me patience, selflessness, and surrender. In turn, He has given me the gift of our daughter, joy, and so much thankfulness!

The Best Books I’ve Read Lately (Plus a Book Roundup)

I really enjoy reading posts by other bloggers about the books they’ve read. Usually, I end up adding a few more books to my ever growing to-read list. I thought it would be fun to share some books I’ve been loving lately along with a roundup at the end of this post!

As I put this post together, I realized all three of the books I’ve read lately are nonfiction. Two of the books are memoirs about pregnancy, and the other is about marriage. I tend to read a lot of memoirs and books about midwifery, pregnancy, and family life. It’s definitely an interest of mine!

Look at You Now: My Journey from Shame to Strength by Liz Pryor

In the late 1970s, Liz Pryor found herself pregnant at 17-years-old. She came from a good family in Chicago, so when her mother dropped her off at a locked government-run facility for delinquent and impoverished pregnant teenage girls three states away, she experienced a culture shock. Liz’s parents wanted to keep her pregnancy a secret, so she was forced to spend six months in involuntary hiding from life as she knew it. Liz developed special bonds with the other girls and began to question what she knew about her life in Chicago.

I absolutely devoured this book. I wanted to know what was going to happen, how Liz would hold up, and what the other girls lives turned out like.

Cherish: The One Word That Changes Everything for Your Marriage by Gary Thomas

I actually can’t say I finished this book yet because I checked it out from the library and had to return in within a week or so because others were on the waitlist. I requested it again, and I can’t wait to dive back in when it’s available!

In Cherish, Gary Thomas unpacks how marriages can thrive if husbands and wives learn to Cherish each other. He gives a lot of real life stories and practical advice, which I love!

Bringing in Finn: An Extraordinary Surrogacy Story by Sara Connell

Sara Connell struggled through a incredibly painful journey to motherhood. She went through multiple rounds of IVF, lost pregnancies, experienced stillbirth, and so much emotional anguish. In 2011, her mother became her surrogate and gave birth to Sara and her husband Bill’s son, Finnean.

The way that Sara wrote her story was so raw, honest, and real. I especially loved learning about how Sara and her mom formed a beautifully strong bond through their journey together.


Now, onto the roundup!

Other Books on Pregnancy and Motherhood I’ve Read and Enjoyed

Surrogacy
Then Came You: A Novel by Jennifer Weiner
Goodnight, Beautiful by Dorothy Koomson

Teenage Pregnancy
Not Afraid of Life: My Journey So Far by Bristol Palin
Pregnant Pause by Han Nolan
The Pregnancy Project: A Memoir by Gaby Rodriguez
Where the Heart Is by Billie Letts
Not my Daughter by Barbara Delinsky

Pregnancy
Shades of Blue by Karen Kingsbury
Baby Proof: A Novel by Emily Giffin
Something Blue: A Novel by Emily Giffin
Rattled!: A Memoir by Christine Coppa
The Bookstore by Deborah Meyler
Inconceivable: A Woman’s Triumph over Despair and Statistics by Julia Indichova

Parenting
Bringing Up Bébé: One American Mother Discovers the Wisdom of French Parenting by Pamela Druckerman
Operating Instructions: A Journal of My Son’s First Year by Anne Lamott

Adoption
Where We Belong: A Novel by Emily Giffin
Kisses from Katie: A Story of Relentless Love and Redemption by Katie J. Davis
Like Dandelion Dust by Karen Kingsbury

Family Life
The Red Tent by Anita Diamant
Little Earthquakes by Jennifer Weiner
Family Tree by Barbara Delinsky

Midwifery
The Reluctant Midwife: A Hope River Novel by Patricia Harman
The Blue Cotton Gown: A Midwife’s Memoir by Patricia Harman
The Secrets of Midwives by Sally Hepworth
Arms Wide Open: A Midwife’s Journey by Patricia Harman
The Midwife of Hope River: A Novel of an American Midwife by Patricia Harman
The Midwife by Jolina Petersheim
A Midwife’s Story by Penny Armstrong
Diary of a Midwife: The Power of Positive Childbearing by Julianna van Olphen-Fehr
Baby Catcher: Chronicles of a Modern Midwife by Peggy Vincent

What’s your favorite genre of books?

Have you read any of the above books?