Six Weeks as a Mom

Sadie is six weeks old! I’ve been jotting down thoughts as they come to me, and here’s what I think of being a mom six weeks in.

The past six weeks have been the fastest of my life.

I love being Sadie’s mom, but I don’t really feel like a mom. What does that feel like? Will I know when I feel it?

Sometimes when Sadie cries, I’m the only person she’ll stop crying for. This is adorable and also overwhelming.

Seeing the joy that Sadie brings to our family and friends makes me so happy.

I knew breastfeeding would be a big learning curve, but the first few weeks were intense. We had some issues with clogged ducts, thrush, and engorgement. We pushed through, though, and I’m so glad we did.

It has been a big adjustment to realize that for now, I’m Sadie’s source of food 24/7 because she’s not a fan of bottles. Knowing that she won’t be breastfeeding around the clock when she’s in high school (or even a year from now haha) helps me realize that this time of nursing on demand is just a season and should be savored. I love when she locks eyes with me and rests her little hand on my chest.

Seeing Jimmy and Sadie interact is still one of my favorite things.

I feel so connected with other parents. Also, anyone with more than one child is a superhero. How do they do it all?!

I’m insanely excited for my sister to experience this.

We’re slowly getting better at getting out of the house and going places. Baby carriers are worth their weight in gold!

While we’re getting better at getting out, we don’t really have any type of schedule right now and I’m (usually, haha) totally okay with that.

I’m surprised at how much I don’t mind changing diaper after diaper… for now? I’ve always heard that when it’s your child’s diaper you’re changing, it’s not so bad. I’ve found that to be true!

I miss being as productive as I used to be. At the same time, being a parent and fulfilling the needs of our child is one the best things I’ve ever done.

The witching hour is real. I’d say it’s actually more witching hours for us. It’s hard and sometimes we both cry.

Bath time is the best! She gets so calm and curious. I love, love, love it.

I think I’m going to become ambidextrous. Sadie always wants to nurse when I eat, so I’ve learned to eat with one hand/left handed/balancing a plate on the couch/standing at the counter/etc.

It’s so true when people tell you that holidays become more special when you have a child. I’m crazy excited for Thanksgiving and Christmas this year!

The worry that comes with motherhood can be all consuming. Is she breathing? Does she have a fever? Will she grow up to be a decent human being? I’m learning to trust that God is in control.

Our pets have truly adjusted so well. It’s like a switch flipped and they realized there’s a new little human they need to respect. We still have days that are overwhelming and frustrating, but that’s to be expected.

I love dressing her up, but I think she’s the cutest in her pjs!

It has been strangely fun to discover which baby products we like.

Seeing Jimmy become a father has been absolutely amazing.

Sadie’s smiles melt my heart. I’ll do anything to make her smile.

My life feels so radically different than it did six weeks ago. It’s such a huge change, but one of the best changes of my entire life.

I still can’t believe God blessed Jimmy and I with our daughter. Like, she’s real. And she’s amazing. And we love her so much. It’s just indescribable and we are so incredibly thankful.

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22 comments

  1. She is SO pretty! I love all of these pictures! The very last one that’s a close up of her face – oh so precious. I’m so glad that you are adjusting so well to your role as a Mama. Nursing definitely has such a learning curve, but you are doing such a great job! Also, that very last paragraph. Tugs at my heart. Our little one is 15 months now and I still think that very same thing. ❤

    1. Aww, thank you so much Rach! I need to get that last picture printed and put it in a frame! It’s becoming one of my (MANY!) favorites, haha. I’m so glad you can relate to that last paragraph… it’s just indescribable! Never gets old!

  2. I relate to so many of these!! You’re speaking a mama’s language. Sadie is so adorable. She really has a wise look to her – I think she’s going to be studious and kind. It’s in her eyes.

    You’re doing such a good job. It can be so overwhelming to be the sole source of food for a human but you’ve got the right perspective – it is a season and a relatively short one at that. I don’t think the worry ever goes away. Sometimes I miss the emotional lightness that I had (and didn’t appreciate because you don’t know what you don’t know) before I had kids. But there is beauty in the heavy emotions that come with parenthood. The love is just all-encompassing.

    1. So glad you could relate! I love what you said about Sadie’s wise look! I feel the same thing and couldn’t really describe it, haha. I hope she is studious and kind 🙂

      Yes to nursing being a short season! I have to remind myself when I feel like I’m “missing out” when really, I’m doing something amazing for my child and there’s not much more important than that!

      Also, I totally get what you mean about the emotional lightness… so true that you don’t know what you don’t know. Couldn’t have said it better myself! And I 100% agree with the heavy emotions and how there’s beauty in them. The love is so big, deep, wide, and just amazing!

  3. I loved this blog post! I could relate to so many of them, and this brought back those fresh emotions I felt when I first brought my babies home. 🙂 Such sweet thoughts that will become precious memories! Girl, I’m So happy for you!!

    1. Thank you so much, Nicole! I’m really glad you could relate because sometimes it can feel isolating to feel such a wide range of emotions when it’s expected that you’re nothing but happy and well-adjusted after having a baby, you know? These memories we’re making are amazing and I’m already shocked at how fast it’s all going!

  4. You and Jimmy are adjusting so well, as are May, Malc and Lo! She is just the sweetest lil girl ever – but of course I’m a bit partial.
    I will agree – the past 6 weeks have literally flown by! – but for me, so have the last 30 years! ENJOY EVERY MOMENT!
    Love you with all my heart beautiful Mama~

    1. Aw, thank you mom! We have had so much help from you (and so many others) that it has made the big adjustment much smoother! I agree that Sadie is such a sweetie!! I’m biased as well, but I don’t care, haha. ❤

      We truly are enjoying every second and just loving it and feeling so very blessed! I love you mama!

  5. I so loved reading this, Allie!!! Every photo of Sadie just melts me- she is so perfect. You two are doing an amazing job- I love that you posted your genuine, real thoughts and feelings. Thank you for sharing ❤

    1. Yay! I’m so glad you liked reading this, Mackenzie! I was nervous to post all about the wide range of thoughts and feelings on this huge transition, but I’m so glad I did! I have a feeling I’ll love looking back on this post and remembering the highs and lows and what life was like at six weeks!

      1. Oh I am SO glad you did too! I feel like sometimes it’s the posts we are most unsure about that have the most impact because there is an element of being uncomfortable in vulnerability- but when we are vulnerable it’s when we relate with others on a deeper level! (totally didn’t mean to get all deep there haha). Seriously thank you for sharing. I cannot wait to continue on your journey! I get so excited when I see a post published- but also never feel pressured to feel anything you don’t wanna share. You are so right- this post will be invaluable and special when you look back. Huge hugs! xo

  6. We are doing it as parents! Not quite sure how, but we are! I would never be able to do it with out you! I love you 😘

  7. What a sweet post, Allie!! It’s so obvious how much much love you have for your daughter! Also I agree with Rach–Sadie really is SO pretty! I love that your pets are adjusting well overall!

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