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14 Weeks As A Mom

Sadie is officially 14 weeks old. A little more than a quarter of a year. How?! I last posted my thoughts on being a mom at the six week mark, and I’m back eight weeks later with more thoughts.

Loving Sadie is easy. Being a parent is (sometimes) hard. It’s a rewarding experience.

I still don’t feel like a mom. I feel like Sadie’s mom when someone besides me is holding her and she cries until she’s back in my arms. But feeling like an actual mom (<– whatever that means)? Not really!

I adore holding her soft little hands and her smile is my favorite.

Holding baby hand

I’m totally dreading ever having to discipline her. She’s just so cute, innocent, and sweet that I can’t imagine that day I have to enforce rules and boundaries with her.

I really enjoy connecting with other parents. It kind of feels like a club ūüôā

I’m learning to trust my instinct, but at the same time I have no idea what I’m doing.

It’s so much fun to see Sadie discover the world around her. Her joy brings me joy.

Three month old baby in jumper

Not knowing what to expect is hard. Every single day, I wake up not knowing what the day will bring. I’m sure we’ll settle into a routine as Sadie grows, but this type-A planner chick struggles with the unknown.

I’m learning to go with the flow. Along with my last point about not knowing what to expect, I’m learning that it’s much easier if I just surrender to what the day brings. When I try to force XYZ to happen, it just results in stress. It’s so much more freeing to say, “Well, I’d like to fold laundry and get groceries today, but I might be feeding Sadie all day because she’s going through a growth spurt and that’s okay.” I have to remind myself what’s most important and realize everything else can wait.

Being a family is so cool. I don’t know how else to put it. I love hanging out with Jimmy, Sadie, and the pets. I still can’t believe it’s all real sometimes. It feels like such a great blessing and responsibility from God. It’s very, very humbling!

Husband and wife kissing and holding baby family photo

In the first weeks of motherhood, I felt absolutely consumed by caring for our sweet girl. I thought I’d never get to do things like blog, watercolor, or bake again. The weight of caring for a baby felt (and still feels) heavy, but I am finding time here and there to enjoy my hobbies and passions. Taking time to do things the “old me” used to do feels so wonderful.

Breastfeeding is amazing and hard. Before I had Sadie, I decided I wouldn’t put pressure on myself to breastfeed if it didn’t work out. It turned out that Sadie didn’t give me a choice (she snubs bottles!), and I’m kind of glad. It has been such a journey and learning curve, but it’s also incredibly special and rewarding.

I have no idea what I’d do without help from Jimmy, our families, and church family.

Showering, getting dressed, and getting out every day does wonders for my sanity. I think Sadie likes the change of scenery, too.

Baby in stroller with cocker spaniel dog walking beside

Some days are productive and others are just… not, lol.

Life will never be the same, and it’s always changing. Some things are becoming easier and some are becoming harder. It will always be that way. What an adventure.

It’s easy to worry about¬†Sadie’s development but I’m going to let her be a baby. I see so many videos, products, posts, etc. about baby development, milestones, and more. I could be teaching her Spanish or¬†taking her to music lessons, but I think a baby should be a baby. She’ll develop just fine whether or not I speak Spanish to her.

Our pets continue to impress us with how they’ve accepted Sadie. Lola is indifferent to her, Mavis loves her, and Malcolm thinks she’s his baby. I can’t wait to see how their relationships develop as Sadie grows.

Cocker spaniel dog and baby laying together

Mom shaming is a thing. I’ve been scolded twice in public for not having a hat on Sadie. Yikes.

Surrender has been my word since having Sadie. I need to surrender my plans, surrender to this new journey, and surrender to all God is doing in my life.

Jimmy is so competent with Sadie.¬†No one soothes Sadie like her daddy does.¬†Jimmy is¬†also amazing at helping me. He comes home after eight or nine hours at work and dives right into family life with us and I couldn’t be more grateful.

Dad with baby girl in nursery

I want to give¬†Sadie the whole world. Of course I know what she needs most is love and to know the Lord, and I don’t want her to become spoiled, but I want to give her the best life possible.

I feel God refining me. He is teaching me patience, selflessness, and surrender. In turn, He has given me the gift of our daughter, joy, and so much thankfulness!

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A Few Favorites

Sharing a few recent favorites, from books to moments and everything in between!

Moments

Bath time with Sadie. She’s just so content and cute in the bathtub! We are really loving this bathtub and this shampoo + body wash combo at the moment. There’s nothing like a freshly bathed baby all snuggled up in pajamas. Love it!

My own bath time. Fitting in a shower is tough sometimes! I’ve had a few days where Sadie was content to sit in her rock n play and I’d shower and peek out to find her and Malcolm watching me!

When Jimmy dresses Sadie. He got her all ready before my hematology appointment last week and it was adorable to see which outfit he picked out.

Reading a Christmas Bible study on my Bible app.

Decorating for Christmas. We aren’t putting up a tree this year because we don’t have room (small house + baby gear problems, lol), but we’ve decorated the outside of our house with garland, lights, a flag, and the sign below. We also have some indoor decorations up, which I show at the end of my most recent vlog!

Wooden manger scene Christmas decoration

Crafting. I’ve caught the crafting bug and have a million little projects I want to complete.

(Baby) Books

Baby Signs by Joy Allen. At two months, Sadie is a bit young for sign language, but this is helping me brush up on my signing so I can teach her. I haven’t been consistent about learning it since my Penn State days.

Mama Loves You So by Terry Pierce. Rach gifted me this book and it’s so special!

Mighty Dads by Joan Holub. I gave this to Jimmy for Father’s Day and it’s adorable. We’re excited for Sadie to learn about some of the machinery Jimmy uses.

Babies Love Animals by Scarlett Wing.

I Prayed for You by Jean Fischer. I can’t read this, especially the page picture below, without tearing up!

Cleaning supplies

Seventh Generation disinfectant spray. I love that this doesn’t have to be wiped off after use, even on surfaces where food is being prepped!

Method bathroom cleaner. Smells great and works great.

Full Circle detail cleaning brush. I’ve professed my love for this little tool before. Still loving it! I have one in our bathroom and one in our kitchen.

Blogs and Vlogs 

Enough Part I and Part II by Nicole. Man did I need to read those posts. Nicole is such an amazing writer, too.

Vlogging. I’ve been trying to film a vlog every now and then to document our new life as a family.

Happy Things

My siblings expecting their babies ten days apart from each other! My brother and his wife just announced they’re expecting a baby in May, (as are my sister and her husband!)! Hannah and Racquel’s due dates are ten days apart. So, so excited!

Pregnancy announcement picture

What moments/books/things/etc. are your favorite lately?