Thursday June 27th, 2024

Okay, I was able to have an ultrasound today to try and figure out how far along I am! First of all, let’s just take a moment to laugh about the fact that I had to go at 12:30 pm (Mordecai’s nap time!) with both kids and Mordecai did not want me to set him down. Poor buddy. He was such a champ through what was probably a confusing and tiring afternoon for him.

Anyways, we were able to see a yolk sac in my uterus! This is good news because the sac was in the right place. The ultrasound tech thinks I’m around 5 weeks and 3 days. So, very early on! I think I would be due in March?

It was a relief that I *think* this baby was conceived after my iron infusion. I think my biggest fear was that I was like closer to eight or nine weeks and had the infusion when it was too early to test positive and then the baby was impacted by the iron. I don’t think that’s the case, though! Honestly, I don’t know much at this point and that’s ok. I’m just trusting God. He does a much better job at managing things than I do 😉

If we conceived after the iron infusion, what perfect timing on God’s part! I was able to get a huge boost of iron before pregnancy instead of starting out deficient and getting worse and worse with feeling tired and trying to keep up with Sadie and Mordecai.

Since it was too early to see an actual baby, I’ll be having another ultrasound on July 3rd and then one in late July. Praying to see more in the coming weeks and hopefully have a growing little one!

Being 5 weeks also explains why I’m not feeling a lot of symptoms. At the moment, I’m just tired. In my previous two pregnancies morning sickness hit around 6 or 8 weeks, I think? I’m just not going to think about that right now 😆

I’m so early on, it’s easy to be nervous that something will happen. But this child does exist and while something can happen, I am going to celebrate this baby’s life each and every moment I have with him/her! Basically, I am staying in the present and trying not to dwell on the past or the future.

Something I’m excited for is telling my mom! I would have told her by now, but she’s in North Carolina (she and my dad own a house there and stay there often) and won’t be back in Pittsburgh for a few more days. I really want to tell her in person, I just have to think of a fun way to do it!

Okay, bye for now!

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Sunday June 30th, 2024

Hi! No real updates to share. Just some thoughts. I am still having a hard time actually believing this is real? I also feel very normal at the moment. I still have decent energy, am a little extra hungry, and can smell more but that’s about it.

We went to a summer festival-type thing on Friday night and it was such a perfect night. There was live music, kids games, and food trucks. We bought ice cream, sat in the grass, and watched a band perform. I kept seeing babies all around us and was thinking how, Lord Willing, we would have a three month old baby at this time next year?

I was also just enjoying the little secret that Jimmy and I were sharing that evening. Just he and I know the big news and it’s special! We were walking around with our two kids and then one growing inside me. I felt so blessed. I also had a sense of peace. God is in control. He knows what the coming weeks and months will look like and His plan is always good. There’s such a relief in knowing that.

While Sadie bounced on bounce houses and played games, Jimmy and I got a chance to talk about the future. Should we move? Our home has three small bedrooms and is 900 square feet. We’re not 100% certain we can fit two kids in one bedroom. I feel so sad thinking about moving, though. I absolutely love where we live and our little home. We’ve talked about finishing our basement and putting our bedroom down there? We’re not sure!

We also know we need a new car. We have five seats in our car, but we can’t fit two carseats and a booster seat in the back. It is reassuring to know there isn’t much we need for this baby. Just a new crib, really. Mordecai still uses his. Honestly, Mordecai still feels like a baby to me! It’s just crazy to think about him being the middle child.

Well, that’s about all I have to share today. I’m feeling normal, excited to tell my mom (I think I’ll see her on Monday!), have another ultrasound on Wednesday, and Jimmy and I are trying to figure out our living situation as the coming weeks tell us more about our family ❤️

Most of all, I am feeling thankful!

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Wednesday July 3rd, 2024

I’m back with some updates! I told my mom on Monday and it was so fun. My mom’s license plate says “YAYA X8” because her grandkids call her “Yaya” and she has eight of them. When she got to my house, I said I had to take out the trash and secretly taped the number “9” over the “8” on her license plate.

When I came inside, I was like “Mom, there’s a huge scratch on the side of your car. It looks like someone just dragged a key across the side.” I know hahaha, this was so not funny. My mom was like “Oh no!!!” So I took her outside to show her and I was like “The scratch is right there” and pointed to the number 9.

I also managed to get a video, just like the first and second times I told her! After I told her, she and I were in a happy daze all day just going back and forth on so many things. Living situation, her guess on the gender (she thinks girl), and trying to keep things mum until we decide to tell Sadie. It was a great day! Very unexpected and happy 😊

Monday was also the first day I felt a little queasy. I made my usual brekfast of pancakes, sausage, fruit, amd peanut butter but could not finish the pancakes and sausage. On Tuesday, I was the same in the morning–icky feeling–so I made oatmeal and it was also just blah. On Tuesday afternoon, I laid on the couch while Mordecai napped and Sadie watched TV. I was tired!

Today is Wednesday and I woke up at 3:30 am (this happened early in Mordecai’s pregnancy, too) and my mind decided to run a marathon. It was just ping ponging from one thing to another, mostly settling on fear of having another shoulder dystocia birth. I decided it wasn’t worth worrying about right now, left it to God in prayer, and got up at 4:30 am to read my Bible before my ultrasound.

Niva kept me company!

Do I think she knows I’m pregnant? No. Malcolm (our cat), on the other hand, definitely knows. Only three specific times in my life has he laid on my stomach/chest at night and it has been when I’m pregnant. So cool!

The book I’m reading right now is so beautiful. I read this passage today and was nodding my head.

Intellectually, I know my job is to believe in His goodness without wavering. His job is everything else. But my heart can be so slow to remember. This is the sin of the Israelites, of all humankind really, this slowness to remember all that He has done as we stare intently at what He hasn’t done yet, what He might not do. His answer is steady and true: What if I don’t, child? What if I don’t heal her? What if my plan is different? Still I am with you. Still I am God.

I stopped at the store on the way to the ultrasound. My purcheses were giving “tell me you’re in the first trimester of pregnancy without telling me you’re in the first trimester of pregnancy” vibes 😜

The ultrasound was okay. The birth center just recently got a bluetooth ultrasound machine, so I don’t know that it’s as advanced as one in a hospital or facility but we saw a yolk sac and what looked to be an itty bitty baby in there. It was still too early to see a heartbeat, so I need to go back for another ultrasound.

We are mostly just trying to figure out a due date! It kinda makes me laugh, though, because babies come when they come. It’s so rare that they come on their due date, yet it always feels like a big deal to have a due date.

So, thats where I’m at! Morning sickness is starting to set in and I still don’t know exactly how far along I am 😂 Once again, I am feeling so thankful! I’ll be back in another post when I have more to share!

Past updates:
Our Family is Growing Again!
Finding Out About Baby #3