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Freedom

After much internal debate, crying, praying, and talking with my parents and favorite communications professor/adviser, I decided to drop meteorology from my schedule.

Bye bye textbook that I wasted $92.00 on.

I wasn’t earning a low grade in the class (I had a 91% when I dropped it), but I was on my way to a low grade and more importantly, a possible nervous breakdown. I took 15 credits this semester, which is normal for me. Because I’m a junior, all of my classes are getting tougher and tougher.

Bye bye stupid clouds.

Meteorology was giving me a hard time. I was spending hours upon hours studying the textbook, taking notes, and reviewing. I guess I just wan’t getting it because my test grades kept dropping, despite me devoting more time to the class each week. I started out with test grades in the 90% range, then 80s, then 70s, and my last test grade was a 66.7%.

At that point, I had a decision to make: keep spending more time on concepts that I don’t understand and a class that is seriusly stressing me out or drop the class and probably graduate one semester late. I had never dropped a class before, so it felt like a big deal, especially considering the consequence. I really try to commit to my studies and give my full effort, so it felt like I was giving up.

Bye bye radar images that I don’t understand.

I decided to drop the class because I was too stressed out. I wasn’t taking care of myself at all. I was seriously on autopilot in my life. All I did each day was run, study, go to school, eat, and sleep. I was having to ignore the important relationships in my life, and I wasn’t putting my relationship with Christ first. I was miserable and anxious.

Yes, I will probably have to graduate one semester late. Oh well. It’s all in God’s plan. What’s more important to me is knowing my limits, enjoying my life, and putting my relationship with God first.

To be completely honest, after I dropped the class, I still went through an internal struggle. I felt guilty for not taking care of myself and I also felt guilty for dropping the class. I quickly got over it once I realized how it felt to have a little bit of free time in my life!

Bye bye wind charts that make no sense.

It’s not that I didn’t like meteorology, I really did (aside from the math aspect of the class). The material was extremely interesting to be because I’m obsessed with the weather. Liking the class made it that much harder to drop it, but I knew it was the right choice for me. I also respect meteorologists so much more now!

Of course I feel like a weenie for only taking 12 credits this semester, but I’m continually learning my limits in life. Everyone is different, and I’m happy with my decision. So is Jimmy and my family because now I have stopped complaining, crying, and begging them to help me understand my homework. I now have freedom from the anxiety that was choking me, and for that I am thankful!

I am also so thankful to my awesome communications professor, Dr. Wood. She took the time out of her day (on the weekend, too!!) to email back and forth with me and advise me with full honesty. She’s the best.

Have you ever had to drop a class or make a tough decision with long-term consequences? 

Sick + Snow

A few posts back, I mentioned that my sister was sick. She ended up having the flu! Poor Hannah. She started out feeling really awful on Christmas day and is just starting to feel better. My brother came home for the holidays and caught the flu from my sister. Then my mom got it a few days later, and I caught a cold. WHEW.

I’m still not feeling good at all. I have been taking DayQuil, Alka-Seltzer, and NyQuil as well as popping throat lozenges like nobody’s business and downing chloraseptic. I can’t wait to feel like myself again. I haven’t felt this awful since I had the stomach flu in October!

Even though I’m sick, I’ve been enjoying my break as much as possible.snowpicturePittsburgh got some snow! The picture on the left and the picture on the right were taken about 30 minutes apart from each other.

With all of the snow on the ground, I played in it on Saturday, Sunday, and Tuesday. On Saturday and Sunday, Jimmy and I rode his family’s Rzr (kind of like a sporty go-cart) in the snow and walked on a trail by his house. On Tuesday, my family + Jimmy went sled riding! It was a ton of fun. I haven’t been sled riding since Christmas 2010.048

I sprained my finger some time before Christmas. I have no clue what I did! I went to MedExpress on the 27th for X-rays and was so glad to hear it was only sprained. The doctor said it should be back to normal in a few weeks. IMG_4716Yuck.

Jimmy’s younger brother got me the cutest coffee mug for Christmas…IMG_4743The mug goes from “sleeping” to “awake” when hot liquids are poured in it. So cool.

So all in all, I’ve been relaxing and enjoying my time off. I go back to school on Monday (don’t want to talk about it… ugh haha). I’m not too much of a winter person, but I’m embracing all of the snow and having fun with the crazy weather. snowy2That’s my wowit’scoldandwindybutthiswillbefun face before playing in the snow.

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What have you been up to lately?!

Bible verse of the day: Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom. Psalm 90:12