I hope my blog isn’t one of those blogs where my life always comes off as happy and perfect. Cause it isn’t. At all. I have days where I feel really sad or stressed. (Just yesterday I was CRYING over homework for no reason-now that I think of it, it was quite funny). I hate to whine and complain, so I suppose that is why I don’t admit things all the time. But today I will.
I’m afraid to race. (I just typed that and felt so silly.)
I haven’t ran a running race since June 4th.
Ever since that race I have had problems with my knee.
Now i’m afraid to race because I don’t want to feel pain in my knee anymore.
I should remind myself how much fun I have had racing this past year. Commence photo time.
I guess I am putting too much stress on myself to run great races every single race. When I look at these pictures I can see how happy I was and I didn’t run perfectly in every race but I had fun.
I’m thinking about doing a costume race the day before Halloween (the same one as last year!). This should give me enough time to become confident in my running.
I hate complaining and admitting i’m afraid to run a race when my own grandfather was just diagnosed with bone cancer. But everyone struggles with different battles and mine is always fear.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. Isaiah 41:13