Half-Marathon

I’m afraid

I hope my blog isn’t one of those blogs where my life always comes off as happy and perfect. Cause it isn’t. At all. I have days where I feel really sad or stressed. (Just yesterday I was CRYING over homework for no reason-now that I think of it, it was quite funny). I hate to whine and complain, so I suppose that is why I don’t admit things all the time. But today I will.

I’m afraid to race. (I just typed that and felt so silly.)

I haven’t ran a running race since June 4th.

The race was a hilly 5 miler. I got a time of 35:00 (7:00 minute pace on the dot). I was sore immediately after the race because I know I went too hard.

Ever since that race I have had problems with my knee.

Now i’m afraid to race because I don’t want to feel pain in my knee anymore.

BLEH!

I should remind myself how much fun I have had racing this past year. Commence photo time.

A local 5k in May.

A cold 10k in April.

My 2nd half marathon. (In March)

A costume race in October. (I was batman)

Pittsburgh Pirates 5k in early April.

I guess I am putting too much stress on myself to run great races every single race. When I look at these pictures I can see how happy I was and I didn’t run perfectly in every race but I had fun.

I’m thinking about doing a costume race the day before Halloween (the same one as last year!). This should give me enough time to become confident in my running.

I hate complaining and admitting i’m afraid to run a race when my own grandfather was just diagnosed with bone cancer. But everyone struggles with different battles and mine is always fear. 

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So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. Isaiah 41:13

What comes first

Hey there 🙂

Well well well, school has been in session for a week now and I am already up to my eyeballs in school work + reading! So, let me be honest for a moment here. I kind of made a realization. Because I’m not doing a sport for college and i’m currently not working (ugh!!!) my grades better show that I have made the best of having more free time. 

So I have been really, really working hard at doing all of my assigned readings, homework, and papers. I don’t think I have ever been JUST a student. I have always played a sport and worked or at least just played a sport or just worked. I feel a little lost!

It is strange to have some free time. Jimmy and I went to a fair on Friday night.

We spent about an hour in traffic and I had to pee. SO BAD! But luckily we made it. I always go straight to see the livestock at fair’s. I tried to pet every single goat, sheep, and horse.

Today i’m going to the Pittsburgh Renaissance Festival and I am excited! Life is quite full and busy right now. I’ll still be stalking blogs and commenting and posting but maybe a little less frequently.

If you need to find me… i’ll probably be in the library studying because school is going to come first. 

Have you ever “lost” your identity? How did you deal?!

Also: I was thinking about doing a half marathon on September 10th. Should I rest my knee and train for a half in the winter or give the September half a go?!