Month: September 2011

I’m afraid

I hope my blog isn’t one of those blogs where my life always comes off as happy and perfect. Cause it isn’t. At all. I have days where I feel really sad or stressed. (Just yesterday I was CRYING over homework for no reason-now that I think of it, it was quite funny). I hate to whine and complain, so I suppose that is why I don’t admit things all the time. But today I will.

I’m afraid to race. (I just typed that and felt so silly.)

I haven’t ran a running race since June 4th.

The race was a hilly 5 miler. I got a time of 35:00 (7:00 minute pace on the dot). I was sore immediately after the race because I know I went too hard.

Ever since that race I have had problems with my knee.

Now i’m afraid to race because I don’t want to feel pain in my knee anymore.

BLEH!

I should remind myself how much fun I have had racing this past year. Commence photo time.

A local 5k in May.

A cold 10k in April.

My 2nd half marathon. (In March)

A costume race in October. (I was batman)

Pittsburgh Pirates 5k in early April.

I guess I am putting too much stress on myself to run great races every single race. When I look at these pictures I can see how happy I was and I didn’t run perfectly in every race but I had fun.

I’m thinking about doing a costume race the day before Halloween (the same one as last year!). This should give me enough time to become confident in my running.

I hate complaining and admitting i’m afraid to run a race when my own grandfather was just diagnosed with bone cancer. But everyone struggles with different battles and mine is always fear. 

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So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. Isaiah 41:13

Lots of eats and an iPhone convo

Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children. Ephesians 5:1

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Now onto recent eats!

Chocolate covered banana on a stick

A strange meal… roasted veggies in olive oil, baked tofu, and cereal with rice milk.

I took another picture of the strange meal with a strange background … a green rug.

Coconut almond granola with raisins

Lemon poppy seed muffins

A spoonful of peanut butter x2.. or 3..

Toast with peanut butter… see that little bit of different pb in the top left corner? I wasn’t sure if I would like cinnamon raisin pb on bread so I put it on the corner along with regular pb all over the toast. I did like the cinnamon raisin though and I wish I had put it all over the toast instead of regular pb! I wonder if anyone else does things like this?!

Lily trying to eat my delish Kashi cereal with soy milk

Peach Chobani with coconut almond granola. FYI: this gave me THE worst tummy ache 😦 I hate not being able to digest lactose waaaaa

Bible study time with Jimmy at Starbucks! Decaf soy Pumpkin Spice latte!!

4.00$ for produce from the farmers market by my school!

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Silly iPhone conversation.

My sister downloaded an application so that my mom and I can use emoticons when texting. I got a little carried away… I’m the text that is green colored.

Really though, I didn’t poop in the pool! I just wanted to use the poop emoticon 🙂

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With that said, I am off to do homework basically all day.

Have a great weekend!!!!

LETS GO DALLAS COWBOYS!